Friday, November 9, 2012

The Sitter

So, here I am. It's 10pm. I've been contemplating going to bed since 8pm and I've been fighting it. This week has WIPED ME OUT! God claimed two stillborn babies in my family this week. One of a cousin on my side and one of a cousin on my husband's. One thing that is just very difficult for me to handle is a the death of a child. Honestly I don't handle death well at all period but a child... is just so much more difficult.

I also would be looking forward to a 4 day weekend normally but my daughter has a surgery Monday, which means recovery... and on top of it, I'm not getting paid for the time off. Which over all kind of ..............sucks.

For those who don't know, I run a daycare. It definitely has it's up's and it's down's. I have decided that I will be posting about my experiences with that.  I LOVE being home with my children. I LOVE not having to fight the weather. While I am blessed and almost all of my families are SO AWESOME, I'm feeling the need for an outlet to vent my frustrations here and there.

I am lucky. I have so many great families but I have had some not so great families as well. Some are great off and on. Unfortunately you learn as you go. (Just as I have found with my rental property.) You have to command respect and be unequivocally clear with your boundaries and expectations from the beginning in this business or you quickly get taken advantage of. In some cases, DRASTICALLY and grossly taken advantage of.

Since I started in March, I am only now starting to realize that I have to grab this job by the balls and run with it. The minute you give up ownership of your own business, your own time, in your own home, they (and I mean "they" as in everyone but you) takes it over for you and "they" all have their own concept of how it should and actually will be run. So I've dramatically re-vamped my contract... .

I have to say, it is ever evolving and I cannot seem to stop. Seriously 14 pages and I still don't think it is long enough! Actually, I am surprised though. It hasn't scared people off. At least not as many as I thought it would. They seem to be coming in with a lot more respect up front! BONUS!  I have to say, I am a little shocked. I have gotten some compliments on how clear and up front I am rather than being vague and getting pissy about it later.

Anywho...

I will also be voicing my opinions through this Blog on news stories I read, or other personal experiences that I have. I will "keep it classy" despite the fact that I said the word "pissy" I will not name names. This is my outlet. I contain my potty mouth during the day. I won't go hog crazy but I'm not going to contain myself to the max here.

Who knows if I will regret this but one thing I have come to know over the years is that I like to write. It helps me feel better when I am frustrated or hurt. Whether anyone reads it or not, I like to write about my feelings and frustrations. This however electronic age venting is a little out of my comfort zone since I do not usually do things publicly. I tend to be more private over all. So... maybe a pen name? I heard one today "Bitter Betty" hmmm... my husband might have too much fun with that one if he finds out about it.

If there is one thing I should know about my husband,  it is that I probably shouldn't disclose that I've taken up blogging to him. Discussing our feelings isn't necessarily something we "do" around here. :) And when I say "we" I really mean him and his family...

I am traditionally more reserved and conservative however, in my family I was still raised to be open and honest when it really counted. Now my mother... she's an open book. :)

Bitter Betty